Titles are for inspired people

Words. Lately I’ve written none. At least none that matter. My head is full of empty. I spend my time in the company of dull people who view anti -intellectualism as a virtue. It’s time to plot my escape. Update: I left my job! I got a new job! It’s filled with awesome people! Life […]

Processing, Part 2

Finally, after what felt like eternity, the day came for our specialist’s appointment to get the results of my son’s tests. Naturally we had to spend more than an hour in the waiting room to see the doctor. Eventually they sat us in a room with my son’s MRI pulled up on a screen before […]

Toddler Archaeology

When my son was four, he went to nursery school next to an old Catholic church. We walked past it every day on our way to and from school. For my part, I’d hardly noticed it, but for my son it was different. One say he finally said, “Mommy? What is that man doing there?” […]

April Snow

It’s not supposed to snow in April, but there it was. Sheets of white poured down from the sky, while roads, rooftops and ground were buried beneath a coat of white normally worn in February. I was sick to death of snow and a seemingly never ending winter, but I was off today, so at […]

Unexpected laughter

“Why don’t you turn some lights on? ” I asked him. “I’m ok,” he replied, glancing up. “I don’t need the lights on to look at my phone.” “Yeah, but you’re just sitting here in the dark,” I said. “That’s ok,” he smiled. “I’m not afraid of the dark.” I smiled back and said “you […]

90 Minutes

I went to get my little boy from the school bus, the same as every other day. The other mothers at the stop are very social with each other. I’m friendly with them, and I host a lot of playdates, but in general I prefer to be solitary. I just can’t do the endless social […]

The Concept of Prayers

I’ve always found it an odd thing when someone says “I’ll pray for you.” I know it’s a common sentiment but it’s always bothered me because it’s just always seemed so narcissistic. There is so much terrible suffering in the world. There are people whose lives are made up of horrors that I can’t stand […]

Processing

I thought it would be just another appointment.  I thought we were done with the teams and the hospitals and the tests. I thought we were finished being told that it was going to be all right. His physio wad going well. His pediatric therapist seemed confident and he liked her. He’s still having problems […]

Red Flag

  I spent my teens and early twenties living in Kingston, Ontario.  The history of its First Nations population dates back millennia, with its more recent European contingent beginning their story in the early 1600s.  It was Canada’s capital before the Crown settled on Ottawa instead, so it’s filled with buildings that are now too […]

Tears from Soap

  Every Monday, my son’s best friend comes over for a playdate.  His family is devoutly Muslim and whenever we have snacks he asks if they’re halal, so in order to make my life easier, I went to a halal grocery store near my house to buy a few things so he could stop worrying.  […]